Mental Health Check-In: Just Another Manic Monday!

Hey y'all, hope you're all doing well! Thought I'd check in with a mental health post about what's been happening. As you can probably tell by the title, I've been riding that Mania Rollercoaster lol. It's been hitting me hard y'all. The past few nights I've been manic. In my personal experience, when I'm manic I can't sleep, I feel super motivated and on top of the world, I talk a lot and fast, and I usually start doing a ton of projects all at once (I also used to do a lot of online shopping while manic which is VERY BAD!). So, the past few nights I haven't been able to sleep even after taking my meds. And let me tell you, my meds are heavy duty lol. I usually ALWAYS am exhausted after taking my night meds. But mania is powerful and overrides sleepy time! 

So during my manic moments, I've been super cleaning and organizing my room and starting multiple art projects. I painted two canvases last night (I'll do a post on those in a bit). I had music playing and was just jamming out. Eventually at around 2-3 am, I got some sleep. And today I'm feeling the repercussions. 

Because guess what? You know how they say what comes up, must come down? That definitely applies in this situation. You can't stay riding that manic high forever...you've got to come down too. And the "comedown" SUCKS! I just totally crash, feel sad and unmotivated, depressed, yucky, achey, and just really out of it. I hate the crash more than anything, because it's sad losing that great feeling of mania. 

Needless to say, I'm taking it easy and taking care of my mental health. I'm finding a new mental health team out here and will tell them about what's been going on and hopefully I'll be getting a med adjustment, because right now, things ain't good. I mean, they aren't awful, but they aren't great either. 

So yep, that's what I've been going through mentally the past few days! Not fun, but I'm chugging along. I hope y'all are doing way better than I am lol. 

Alette