I Need To Start Enjoying Life And JUST LIVE

 Hiya friends! The title says it all really. I need to start enjoying life. My whole life, except when I was a wee little girl, I have worried and feared each day in my life. I've tried making plans for worst case scenarios in case something goes wrong, just so I'm prepared (lol I know this is impossible in life). I dread the future and look longingly at the past and the present is just drifting by and I'm not even enjoying it or truly living!

I long for the carefree attitude and laidback approach to slow living and intentional living. It's just so hard to actually do when you're mentally ill and anxious all of the time. But I'm going to start making a true effort to enjoy life more, do more seasonal activities so I enjoy each moment of time life gives me, and have little celebrations every so often to keep the joy of life alive! 

I'm in my early 30's now and I have just realized how much of my 20's was a blurry mess. I don't blame myself for that though, I was working through some very difficult things and have become all the stronger for it. But now that I'm in a new decade, I want to become a little less scared and more happy and content with life. So I shall try. 

I hope to document this on my blog as I set out to enjoy life more, celebrate little moments, and have fun along the way! I hope y'all will enjoy this journey with me :)