Do You Ever Want To Stop Being You?

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Do you ever want to just stop being you for awhile? Not in a suicidal or life ending sense. More of a "let's take a break from living life as myself and hibernate for a bit". Or maybe switch places with someone else for a bit. I ask this question because that's definitely how I've been feeling lately. It would be so nice to be able to pause or zoom forward in life a bit and just hibernate for awhile. Recharge and reset. Heal and lick wounds. Come back being stronger and better than ever! Unfortunately, that is impossible. We have to keep going day after day and hope for the best. 

I'll be honest, I'm definitely depressed these days. Not severely, but enough that its impacted my life and made me sleep more, eat more, feel less, laugh less. Maybe it's life right now and all that utter crap going on that is making me feel this way. Maybe its the chemical imbalance in my brain. Probably both! All I know is that I wish I could stop feeling this way, switch with a happy person's brain and body, hibernate for awhile and let the world burn and come out when all is ashes. 

I'm sorry for not being upbeat today, but I want to be real about how I'm feeling. And if you feel this way, know that you're not alone. It's a hard time we're living in! We will have bad days, that's just human. For now, I'm going to be extra gentle with myself. Let myself sleep as much as I need and try to find a bit of joy in little things throughout the day. And just know and remember, things won't always be this way. Things will get better, you won't feel like this forever. All good things come to an end, yes, but so does the bad!

Alette