New Mental Health Series!
Hey y'all! I'm very excited to introduce to you today a whole new series based on mental health and awareness. Each day, I'm going to share my mental health tracker with y'all and a snippet from my diary about the day! I've wanted to do this for a long time and I finally got the courage to share an in depth look at my mental health and life. I want to really bring awareness to mental health and show a glimpse inside my mind and life to show to people that mentally ill people are not weird or scary or violent or evil, etc. We're humans just like you! I really hope this helps people feel less alone and helps people talk about their mental health. Feel free to chat in the comments about how you're feeling. I don't want anyone to feel alone on my blog. My blog is a safe space! So let's get into yesterday's mental health tracker. I'll post each night about my mental health for the day, so tonight I will post about today's!
August 1, 2019 Thursday
Mental Health:
Anxiety: I'm anxious all day, everyday, let's be real! However, I've only been getting sick and nauseous from anxiety during the evening. As soon as I take my Buspar, (anti-anxiety med), it stops, thankfully! I've also been fidgeting and pacing a lot, but that's the norm for me! I can NEVER sit still due to my anxiety!
Depression: I keep wondering if my depression is operating at a very subtle level? I've been super tired and sleeping a lot, but that could be because my Abilify (antipsychotic med) was increased. Who knows! I'm just taking things day by day and I'll monitor it.
Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type: I haven't heard any voices or sounds today except for the alarm going off in my head last night when I woke up and was scared our house alarm was going off and robbers had broken in. I was able to calm myself down and fall back asleep. No mania, I've just been super tired. No visual hallucinations today either. I am monitoring my paranoia and delusions though, because they pop up whenever I see black helicopters flying over our neighborhood. We live by an Air Force Base, so I know this is normal, but still. I don't trust the helicopters and my mind is determined that there's a conspiracy going on.
Highlight of the day: Sitting outside on the deck with mom watching the storm rolling in and then going inside to eat warm breakfast casserole
Fact About Me: I've had anxiety all my life (social and general), depression since 16, and diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar type at 19.
Song of the Day: Scorpio Moon by PLUM. This is the rare type of song that you can chill or dance to!
That's what I'll be doing each evening to bring awareness. I hope this helps someone or you just enjoy reading it :)
Alette
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