Movie Day & Body Positive Acceptance

some coloring done by me :)

Hey y'all! I have to say, I am feeling so much better this week than the past few. It's such a relief to feel like yourself again after a period of anxiety attacks and depression. I saw my therapist this weekend and it felt SO good to express how I'm feeling and cry it out and get advice and perspective. There's nothing better than that, it's like you feel reborn coming out of a good therapy session. 

Yesterday I went shopping with my mom at Target and we did some damage lol. I got a few cute new outfits, which I'll do some fashion posts coming up soon! I also got some hair products which I'm going to test out for review. Today me and my mom got Subway and went to see Ocean's 8. I had such a good time! It was such a good, fun movie! I highly recommend it; had a great cast and flew by really quickly. 

What I really wanted to talk about today is my body positive acceptance journey, or rather the beginning of it. I had a revelation of sorts yesterday while I was trying on clothes in Target. I put on a tank top and flowy pants and looked at myself in the mirror. I felt out of my comfort zone in it and a bit ashamed...I hate showing my upper arms and there they were, in the light of day. All of a sudden, I had a flashback to when I was much skinnier, probably around 120 pounds and I was trying on swim suits. I had the EXACT same feeling about my body as I did now, at a much heavier weight. I was shocked looking back. How could I have been so ashamed of myself at one of my lightest weights? Even at my thinnest, I wasn't happy or confident in myself. I realized that while I've been focusing more on my outward appearance, I need to work on my inside. I need to work on my self love and care. I need to boost my confidence and self esteem. I need to accept how I look right at this moment and figure out how to love myself like this. Because if I'm not secure within myself now, I still won't be 50 pounds lighter. 

That was my revelation and the beginning of my body positive acceptance journey. I work out everyday, take my meds everyday, try to eat "good" food everyday, now I need to start working on making my mindset healthier each and every day. I'll write more topics on this, because this is the start of something new! I hope someone out there can relate. 

I hope y'all are having a great last week of June! Can you believe it's already almost over? I was just babbling about how May is almost done! I'll see y'all soon :)

Alette