Darling, You'll Be Fine...Eventually

"Darling, You'll Be Fine" colored by me out of the "Don't Worry, Eat Cake" coloring book by Katie Vay

Happy Friday and first day of June y'all! We are officially in Summer! And boy, does it feel like it, it's SO hot out today. So, here I am, camped inside my cool, dark room, waiting for the sun to go down like the vampire that I am. 

Today I wanted to be real with you and talk about life. Lately I've been unmotivated about art and writing...maybe I'm in a creative slump, who knows! I put a bunch of pressure on myself to do certain things and then I end up cracking and collapsing a week or two later, so that might be this feeling as well lol. I'll be honest, it's hard navigating life when you are chronically ill and/or disabled. Your body and mind work against you, you might not be able to work like everyone else, or socialize like everyone else. I'm constantly trying to build something out of nothing while feeling like crap and being in a bad mindset. But, I think it's important to stay positive and trudge on through the ups and downs of life, but let's be real, everyone's gotta complain sometime or another. 

I've also been feeling unappreciated and dare I say, disrespected, by some people in life. This goes back to my uneven relationships post...I'm the giver in most relationships and occasionally, I get tired of giving all the damn time and helping people and listening to their issues and giving advice (doing all this while being sick, in pain, exhausted, unstable, or all of the above) and getting back nothing in return but silence or more self centered babble. I feel like the Universe is sending me signs and lessons through people and that I'm going through a huge growth period right now. Or that could all be bullshit and it's just that people can be shitty lol. 

Enough complaining, I just wanted to be real and document one of my down days. I have a lot of those days so why shouldn't I be honest with how I feel today? Just remember this if you're feeling like I am right now...this is temporary and won't last forever. Good is always around the corner, you just have to wait out the bad for the good to pop up again. Like my coloring page says: Darling, you'll be fine :) ...Eventually lol. 

In some fun news, I got some super cute washi tape and journals to start journaling regularly again! Here's the washi:

I got a pink theme, a floral theme, a purple boho Victorian theme, and a mermaid theme. Quite well rounded if I do say so myself! As for my journals here they are:

I got a pretty black and gold foil one as well as two florals! They're just cheap unlined, handstitched journals which is a great stepping stone back into the journaling world. 

Well, I hope y'all are doing well and that you have a great weekend with lots of good weather! My parents' anniversary is this weekend and they're celebrating downtown and I'm just so happy for them! They deserve the best! Alright, enough rambling. Take care y'all!

Alette