I'm Back! Thoughts on Dieting and Mental Health

Admiring Beauty by Guillame Seignac

Well...I lasted blogging everyday for about a week lol. I tried! But I'm back now. The past few days I've been down and out wow...I've slept over 16 hours a day and then dragged myself out of bed to work out and eat. It seems to be a common thing with other mentally ill people where some days you just need way more sleep than usual. The brain knows what it needs best, so I just try to listen to it and rest. But today I'm feeling a lot better. It's cold and cloudy but I'm happy! I got some sharpies from Walmart and I'm ready to spend the day coloring and listening to music. 

The past few days I've also had time to think about my weight, my diet, and how it all effects my mental health. I'll be honest...I HATE dieting, HATE IT! I love to exercise but I hate having to count calories and carbs and crap. Dieting always puts me into a negative mindset where I focus on numbers and trying to get to an unrealistic small size and I make myself sick over it. Maybe I shouldn't view it as a dieting but as just healthy eating with an occasional splurge. I don't know...I just have to reevaluate how I view healthy eating and weight loss and not make it about being as small as I can go but as a means of being healthy. 

Honestly, I think back to when I was a young teen (before mental illness) and occasionally I'd go on a diet to get rid of those extra pounds from Christmas or whatever. And wow was dieting SO much easier. My OCD didn't kick in about numbers, my depression didn't kick in when I failed to meet my goals, my anxiety didn't kick in when I was stressed and cause me to stress eat. It's SO much harder to lose weight with a mental illness. But not impossible. 

I'm not really sure what this blog post is about today...just me rambling and letting my thoughts loose from the past couple of days. For now, I'll just keep chugging along and stay on that weight loss grind. Ugh. I want Taco Bell. 

Alright, well, I should go work out. It's nice to be back! 

See y'all tomorrow,
 Alette